day 23 - a picture of your favorite book The Catcher in the Rye is my absolute favorite book.  I know you suckers thought that I would put up Harry Potter, haha but I love all those books.  But a non HP book that I absolutely love is The Catcher in the Rye.  It’s hard to explain why, but it caught my mind & attention.
day 22 - a picture of something you wish you were better at I wish I was better at softball.  I mean, I was good in high school, but not good enough to get scholarships for it.  I had to get scholarships based on my academics.  But I swear, if I was better at softball in high school, I wouldn’t be paying 9k to go to school.
day 20 - a picture of somewhere you’d love to travel Lol, I went out of order :P But I would love to travel to Europe. All over Europe, France, England, Italy, Ireland. Everywhere.
day 21 - a picture of something you wish you could forget These people were my friends.  I don’t talk to any of them anymore.  This was also my graduation party.  I thought that they were my friends, but they came late.  They decided to drink & came late to my party.  It was close to ending before they came. I look all happy in there, but I was irritated.  ”Real” friends wouldn’t show up late like that.  & the friends that did show up, showed up on time.  Funny thing is, I considered Torin my best friend, he was my everything that year.  & Erika was my best friend since elementary & of course we had a bumpy road.  & Brandi became one of my best friends in high school.  I’ve known Elizabeth for awhile, but she was always a friend.  & to be honest, I wasn’t the closest with her, but she’s the only person that I’m okay with to this date.  Everyone else that I considered my best friend, I don’t even talk to.  Sure, I think of them, but they aren’t even worth my time anymore.  I don’t want to forget my party, but I do want to forget the part when they came.  It’s horrible to say, I know, but, really?!?
day 19 - a picture and a letter      This is a picture of me & John in 2007.  Boy, have we come a long way. Dear John,     You & I came a long way.  I don’t even know if I can explain it.  I don’t want to explain, because no one will understand.  You were my best friend for a long time.  From the day that I met you, I knew that you were special.  Not just because I haven’t seen someone like you before, but because you had this sense of humor that was comforting.  I won’t forget the first day that I met you.  It might not sound like a cliche, because I have really good memory.  But I’ve met a lot of people in my life & the day that I met you is still stuck in my brain.  Being your best friend allowed me to really see into your heart.  I knew everything about you.  You knew everything about me.  & I fell in love with you.  But I never thought of my own happiness, I cared more about you & your wants.  So I let you be with my best friend.  I was crushed, but you pulled through & told me that it was me that you liked instead.  I spent a long time with you.  I spent it being your best friend, being your girlfriend, being your lover.  You loved me.  But I also got to experience not having you at all. When you left, John, I felt like I died.  It was something that I couldn’t get over. I died inside, & my senior year of high school almost sucked.  But it didn’t because you were my inspiration.  Being with you for that long made me realize that I missed a lot while with you & I was still so young.  I also realized that I didn’t need any boy to satisfy me.  All I needed was myself.  I got inspired by you & motivated by you, I got accepted into so many colleges that I had to pick & choose.  But then, you came back.  & that’s when things got tough. I build a wall because I never wanted to feel that pain again.  I didn’t let anyone in, because in the back of my mind, I knew that I wasn’t over you.  First, we saw each other very briefly for an hour or so, sneaking out, maybe once in every three months.  As time progressed, I saw you more & more, while we were both in relationships.  Then in Jan 2011, you came back for good.  You told me that you were leaving, I was going to let you, because I care about you that much.  I wasn’t going to stop you, but you didn’t leave & that made me so happy.      I guess the reason I am saying all this is because I don’t know if you know this or not.  But I love you, I’ve always loved you.  The difference between this relationship & other relationships is that I know how it is to not have you.  I know how it is to know that I was wasting my time thinking of you when you weren’t thinking of me.  I know how it feels to have your whole world come falling down.  But I also know how it feels to overcome that.  I know how it feels to be with someone you love.  I know how it feels to move on.  I haven’t fully moved on from you, because there is always that sense in the back of my mind that we belong together.  But who really moves on from the guy that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with? Who really moves on from your first true love?  Who really moves on from someone that you love & holds a huge piece of your heart? But I know how it feels to lose the person that you love.  But through everything, these 6 years that I’ve known you, I’d rather have you than nothing at all.  It’s hard to have you out of my life.  Because I know how it feels to have you outside of my life.  I don’t plan on experiencing that feeling again.  So please, please, stay.  Don’t leave me again, I’m begging you.  You’re my best friend, & I want it to stay that way.  Love, Janessa 
day 18 - a picture of your biggest insecurity My eyes. :( They used to be soooo big.  But they look like their getting smaller & smaller.  They probably aren’t getting smaller, but it looks like it. 
day 17 - a picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently This isn’t a something, it’s more of a someone.  I tried to think of things both human & objects that made a huge impact on me recently, & none other showed up except for this guy right here.  I don’t know why, but he is the first person that I thought of.  To be honest with you, when he left, it was a huge impact on me because after that, I finally lived the normal high school life.  & even deeper, I found my motivation.  Him leaving was the hugest impact on where I’m headed.  & ironically enough, him coming back is a huge impact, because now, more than ever, I know what I want & how to get it. 
day 16 - a picture of someone who inspires you This is Demi Lovato.  She is someone that inspires me.  She overcame so much & stood standing tall after everything that happened to her.  Her lyrics are inspiring.  I’ve liked her from the start.  My favorite quote of hers is “The smartest thing a woman can ever learn is to never need a man.”
day 15 - a picture of something you want to do before you die I want to travel Europe. I want to learn the history, everything. From Italy, to England.
day 14 - a picture of someone you could never imagine your life without It’s not a “someone” it’s “someones”  This isn’t even my whole family.  But I could never imagine life without them.  I know, I was close to putting John here.  But I’ve lived without him before, if it wasn’t for my family, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today.  I love them all, & life without them, would suck.